Apostezy - Selfish Deception

They don’t know
How many times I should fall
Before I get what I want
They don’t know
How hard to break this ice every time
To stay afloat

Mind got bogged down with resistance
Only willpower can counter with it

Exhausted from the constant struggle
I'm slowly fading away
Should I, should I stop fighting?
May I, may I give up halfway?

Falling I’m trying to reach my inner senses
Choking I’m building these walls of time

Again the heart beats the alarm
It stretches and collapses like a supernova
I can't handle the load
The empire of self deception grows

Hungry beast
Can't get saturated with
The easy digestible beans

Rotting body can't find out the truth
That hides beneath the skin
Should I stop consuming?
May I, may I give up halfway?

Falling I’m trying to reach my inner senses
Choking I’m building these walls of time again
Falling I’m trying to reach my inner senses

Choking I’m building these walls of time again

With belief that your life is worthless
Just stop talking nonsense
That your action doesn’t matter anyway
You’re only looking for excuses
There’s no promise you can make
I can’t believe a single word you say

Sweet selfish deception
Intoxicates me so fine
That I slowly lose my mind
Oh

They don’t know